Are you alive or just existing. reality is never as good as your imagination. wash the sorrow from my skin and show me how to be whole again. they say love makes you happy but I feel sad. I won't even try anymore. sleep isn't just sleep anymore it's an escape. I don't want to feel blue anymore. I don't even know what's real anymore. life is better when you don't care. I'm too tired to care. lost inside my own thoughts. I can't trust anyone anymore.

Everyone hates me. head in the clouds and i'm not coming down. I never apologize for how i feel. Leave me alone. I am the way. where did it all go. We don't know the weight of the words we say. I'm broken. He never cared. everything is awful. Alas. somewhere out there lives the one who's meant for me. I think i should stop talking. I have wasted my life. deep inside i care. A strange game. The winning move is not to play. Hey man i love you but no fucking way. I don't think you understand. I hope someday i will find love again. I send my best regards from HELL.

Welcome to the void. There is nothing here. The end justifies nothing. Fuck what they think. This world sucks so i made my own. Maybe this world is another planet's hell. The truth hurts more than the lie. Who am i kidding? I really am a failure. I don't know exactly what went wrong but i know its always my fault. Death is life's final insult. Over thinking kills your happiness. A sinner has no right of choice. Lost somewhere in outer space. Being myself didn't work. being someone else didn't work. Maybe i just wasn't ment to have anyone.

Get out of my fucking head. who were you before they broke me. you may paint over me but i will still be here. i remember feeling alive. i'm being devoured by every memory ive ever had. maybe i'm not too sensitive maybe your just a dickhead. clean your room don't use that tone with me. you don't understand i tried. i really tried. i don't have a short temper i have a quick reaction to bullshit. i'm starting to think i can't do this. numb and getting colder. nothing left.

lol i'm dying life is the art of dying why me? till death i make art i may never forgive the universe for treating me so badly i still feel nothing but thats ok silence is better than bullshit i feel so lonely does this story ever end i'm living in a nightmare there's no love anymore.

Don't touch me i'm sick tell me i'm real please hard to explain going nowhere in life i'll sleep when i'm dead nobody knows how i feel please burn my sad memories i'm meaner than my demons it began as a mistake what's wrong with me feel nothing i do not need people who do not need me whatever i'm sick of saying sorry why the pain i fucked up