Anywhere can be paradise as long as you have the will to live. I expect nothing and I'm still disappointed. People can't understand others completely. What's wrong with running away from reality if it sucks. We are all sensitive people. Nothing lasts forever. Are you still lost?. Worship no idols. It feels like I only go backwards. Build a better world. Make it real. Ill see you again. Your afraid of failure aren't you?. I still hate the darkness. it brings memories of nothing but horrible things. Maybe I'm just meant to be lonely. Unless you step forward nothing will change. I only felt pain when I existed in that reality.  

I was in Melbourne

To anyone reading this I'll be gone for a week on a road trip

I'm my demon. The soul that sees beauty may sometimes walk alone. I've grown accustomed to being alone. Are you lost?. So what do you feel?. You did your best today. Please get some rest. Don't erase me. You can't decode everything some things are just meant to be felt. Don't take it personally. Its a reflection of them not you. The sun is alone too but still shines. Its difficult to explain so I stay quiet. This ain't an easy world to live in. Life always finds a way to tell you that you fucked up. Somehow I feel like nothing matters anymore. I just want to stay busy so I don't have time to feel anything. Life becomes so much better when you stop expecting anything from anyone. In the end we are always alone.

Don't compare. eyes never lie. rebooting will erase everything in memory. I'm not who I used to be. Hide my sadness no one cares. I will probably fail anyways. What does it mean to be happy?. Who are you to judge me. Don't trust anyone. Not dead not alive. Happiness is dark and unattainable don't waste your time. Good night whatever that is.

Who am I. I don't feel like I belong on this planet. Please burn my sad memories. Do you want to play with my feelings?. Tired of trying. May your favorite people never turn into strangers. I am still searching the real me. Sometimes there's nothing left to do but move on. Sometimes silence is my way of having a conversation. The future is uncertain but i still have hope.

Where did it all go?. Where are you?. The moon is a friend for the lonesome to talk to. Was it all in vain?. Keep me in this dream forever. Constantly adrift. Its me against the world. don't waste your time. The world may end soon and everything shall turn into dust. So close yet so far. In my heart there is a tower that topples over over and over. I wish I could go back to how I used to be. The amount of bullshit I endure can't be expressed with words.

Don't talk to me ok?. Welcome to nobody gives a fuck population 8 billion and counting. I just spend my days waiting for them to end. The worst is yet to come. Forward is my only choice. Missed by no one. Everything is trash. I'm a zero with thousands of unrealistic goals. Heart feels empty. I feel lost but it feels fine. So many people here so little love. My only escape is fantasy. Take me to the stars and never back.

I'm still here. I belong wherever I want to be. Let go of those who are too blind to see your worth. A place that never existed. I love sleep. My life has the tendency to fall apart when I'm awake. Don't talk to me ok?. No where feels like home. Condemned to be free. Don't forget we are all fading away destined to be blurry figures framed within old photographs. Everybody else is doing it so why can't I?. I want somebody to dream with. The person you are looking for no longer exists. My soul is tired. Were are all alone after all aren't we?. I wish I could change things. I need to escape. Destined to be forgotten yet trying. Here I am. suffering on a place I exist not by my choice. I don't feel sad I don't feel anything. All my achievements shall inevitably be buried beneath the debris of a universe in ruin.

Same old shit but a different day. I can't explain and I won't even try. feeling good is temporary. smiling has always been easier than explaining why I'm sad. slowly so slowly like petals falling from a rose. I want you to know but I don't want to tell you. Fuck the system. What's wrong with me. I have seen what the darkness does. I hate getting flashbacks from things I don't want to remember. I haven't moved on I'm just lying to myself. pain makes people change. saying it won't change a thing. does this poem ever end.